Sunday, December 14

Ella Marie

Our sweet Ella passed away sometime earlier this week. During a Dr. appointment Friday with our family Dr. (Laura has a terrible cold), we asked him to listen to the heartbeat. When he was unable to find one, he did an ultrasound. He claims to not be good with ultrasounds, but he was unable to find a heartbeat there also. My OB was in surgury, but his office suggested we head to the hospital, and they would have a specialist do an ultrasound.

We got checked into the hospital, and our OB was out of surgery in time to be with us. They brought up the high-teck ultrasound machine, and confirmed our fears. Baby Ella was no longer alive. There was no heartbeat, and there was no flow within the umbilical cord.
At this point there were very few options. Because I was 32 weeks, I had to go through labor and delivery. They asked if we wanted to go home and be together, then come back the next day, but we decided to just stay in the hospital and start labor.


They gave me a suppository at 3pm, and I could feel some contractions, then another suppository at 7pm...along with a shot of morphine. After the 11pm suppository, the contractions came hard and fast, and I could tell I was going to have a baby soon.

Ella was born at 12:11 AM, Saturday Dec. 13, 2008. She was beautiful!


She weighed 2 lbs 10 1/2oz and was 15 inches long. She is definatly a White! Long toes and feet, long thin fingers.





We were able to spend about 3 hours with her, and it was wonderful. We took some pictures, and Brandon said a beautiful prayer. We weren't sure if we could give her a name and a blessing, but we have since found out that we can, so when we go to dress her, we will be able to do that too.

We have had such great support from our family and friends. We are struggling to understand what has happened, and why, and have so appreciated the love we have felt. Thank you!

We will be having a small grave-side service Tuesday, at the Bountiful Lakeside Cemetary. Ella will be able to rest and wait with her Grandma Jo.



10 comments:

the holland's said...

laura, sh is so beautiful................i love you, and you can do this. i promise, we arent geiven anything that we cant handle. she was too perfect to exsist here. she is an angel. our hearts and prayers are with you and the family

Jen said...

Laura, our prayers and love are with you and Brandon and your family. In my prepartion for my lesson today, we were studing the beatitudes - Blessed are those who mourn, for they shall have comfort. I hope that you can feel the comfort that our Savior Jesus Christ and our Heavenly Father and the Holy Ghost can give you. Love you.

Ginny said...

Laura and Brandon,

I can't even find the words to convey my feelings. I pray the Lord will sustain you through this very difficult time. May you feel the tears of those who love you and mourn with you...and I hope that somehow it might lighten your burden.

Our prayers are with you and your family. Ella is beautiful and I am soooo glad you got to spend some time with her.

I love you!!!

Ginny

jenny.hawkes said...

My prayers are with you. What a blessing that we know of the Plan of Salvation, that we know she is in heaven and that she is loved and cared for, and you will see her again. I am so sorry for your loss.

Ali Miller said...

Ditto to everything everyone is saying... and by the way, i know it's not easy, but try your hardest to get out and LAUGH, LAUGH, LAUGH! then, CRY, CRY, CRY, then LAUGH, LAUGH, LAUGH!!! I LOVE YOU!

Deanna said...

Yes, just what Ali said. We will be here for the cries and the laughs. Just like Woody said in Toy Story... "You've got a friend in me" We are all here for you for whatever you need. And please let it include ice cream at least once!
Love ya!

P.S. How did you get the most amazingly beautiful snowflakes for her service. And the sunlight!

Elizabeth said...

Laura, and family,

While it has been forever and ever since we have talked or seen each other I want you to know how heartbroken and sad I am for you right now!!! She is a beautiful baby and my family is praying for yours as you grieve! I hope someday we can get together and catch up, but until then please know you are in our thoughts and prayers!

Wizzy (Edwards) Heersink

Clint S. Dunaway, Esq. said...

Know that you're in our thoughts and prayers. How blessed we are to know that families are forever and that one day we will all be together again. Let us know if there's anything we can do to help.

Peach said...

She is absolutely gorgeous. What a sweet little darlin'. "Too beautiful for earth." I am so sorry that you and your family have to go through this. Know you are in our thoughts and prayers. Here's one of my favorite quotes: "I know God won't give me anything I can't handle. I just wish He didn't trust me so much". -Mother Theresa You CAN handle it, though right now it may seem impossible, and you may not even want it to. Hang in there. I'm here when you need me.

Erica said...

I am so sorry for the loss of your little one. I found the memorial for Ella on Olivia's webpage. My heart goes out to you mama. Your daugher was very beautiful.